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Author: [livejournal.com profile] thuri
Characters: John Dorian
Rating: G
Description: Spoilers for "My Road Trip." Wrote this last night after seeing the episode, because JD wouldn't leave me alone.



An excerpt from John Dorian's journal:

Dear Squirt,

I didn't get to know you. Not even if you were a boy or a girl. But you would've been mine, and I wanted to say goodbye. Wanted to let you know how much you would've been loved.

I don't know if I would've been a good father to you. I hope I would've. I would've tried, harder than I've tried at anything. I could've taught you a lot of things, and your mommy could've, too. Probably a lot of things that would've made you roll your eyes and laugh at us, when you were older...

You would've had a lot of friends, a lot of people caring about you, too. You would've been really cute, because your mommy and I both are.

You would've been so welcomed. We didn't plan on you, weren't sure about it at first, but...that's just because we were scared. Once I got past that, I wanted you so much. Wanted to feel your fingers close around mine, wanted to see you smile, wanted to hold you, to see you grow up.

We would've had a good time together, you and me. We really would've. I'm a lot of fun. And I'm sure you would've been, too. We could've told each other silly jokes, played games, just talked.

I know you were a tiny, tiny little thing, when you left us, but I loved you already. You made me nervous, about the future, about whether I was ready to be everything you'd need, but I loved you.

I'm sorry you're gone. Sorry I'll never get that chance. So sorry...

So goodbye, Squirt. I'll be here waiting, next time you get a chance to be born. Then we can do everything we missed out on, this time, right? It just wasn't the right moment, yet.

But I'll hug you so close when it is.

Love,
Your daddy

Date: 9 Feb 2007 19:47 (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cyanideandink.livejournal.com
Awww cute. I can see him writing something like this.

I'm still trying to figure out what happened, if Kim just lied to him or what. Help?

Date: 9 Feb 2007 20:33 (UTC)
thuriweaver: (Scrubs: JD: Inner demons)
From: [personal profile] thuriweaver
Thanks! It definitely seemed like the sort of thing he would do.

And as far as I can tell, Kim lied to him, because she thought it would be for the best. They shouldn't be together if it's only for the sake of the baby, since they barely know each other and don't know if they'd be a good couple otherwise. Plus, she wants to stay in Tacoma, and knows JD would be torn if he knew he had a kid there.

That said, she still handled it really, really badly. I think she could've found another way to break up with him, other than telling him their baby died.

That said, this is written as JD's reaction to the news, not to Kim's lie, since he doesn't know she's lying.

Also? Your icon is making me crave cupcakes.

Date: 11 Feb 2007 23:58 (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cyanideandink.livejournal.com
aah okay. that's what I figured but I thought it might have been a dream scene or something at the end with the ultra sound or something. you never know with that program sometimes.

thanks!

Date: 9 Feb 2007 20:02 (UTC)
From: [identity profile] calamitysxchild.livejournal.com
Awww. Damn it, KIM IS SUCH A HO.

Sorry. Getting over it.

Date: 9 Feb 2007 20:34 (UTC)
thuriweaver: (Scrubs: JD: Hiding from the light)
From: [personal profile] thuriweaver
Thanks for the awwww! I teared up a little writing this...


And yeah, Kim definitely could've handled that better.

Date: 9 Feb 2007 20:09 (UTC)
From: (Anonymous)


I FRIGGIN HATE KIM. DIE, KIM DIE!

ahem. Sorry about that. Still don't know what happened, but its good! Sounds like JD.

Date: 9 Feb 2007 20:35 (UTC)
thuriweaver: (Scrubs: JD: Lost in the melody)
From: [personal profile] thuriweaver
I'm so glad you think it sounds like JD! I always try for that, and don't always hit it as well as I'd like to. So thank you!

Date: 9 Feb 2007 20:33 (UTC)
From: [identity profile] keenoled.livejournal.com
Dammit, you made me cry. That might be the saddest sweetest thing I've read in months... Poooor JD!

Date: 9 Feb 2007 20:39 (UTC)
thuriweaver: (Scrubs: JD: Hiding from the light)
From: [personal profile] thuriweaver
I cried writing it, if that helps. And thank you! I could just think of the regret JD must've been feeling, to lose all his daydreams for the past couple months, and wanted to get it out for him.

I'm not exactly glad I made you cry, but I'm glad it was that powerful!

Thanks again!

Date: 9 Feb 2007 20:53 (UTC)
From: [identity profile] keenoled.livejournal.com
It *was* powerful, and I also thought you really captured JD. Just to repeat myself, poooor JD. Great writing, though. :)

Date: 9 Feb 2007 20:56 (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jule1122.livejournal.com
I was doing alright with the story unil I got to the end,
So goodbye, Squirt. I'll be here waiting, next time you get a chance to be born. Then we can do everything we missed out on, this time, right? It just wasn't the right moment, yet.

But I'll hug you so close when it is.

One of the saddest, sweetest things I've read and so perfectly JD. I love how he thinks the baby would have been like him and how he was looking forward to having fun with him/her.

Date: 10 Feb 2007 00:36 (UTC)
From: [identity profile] randomslasher.livejournal.com
*swallows very hard* Oh, JD...

*sends Jack to give him a big hug*

Date: 10 Feb 2007 19:05 (UTC)
From: (Anonymous)
*hides behind handkerchief* Don't look! It's embarressing when I cry. So sweet. JD would have made a great daddy (as I think we've all realized from reading "Changeling"). Great job!

Oh, poor JD. It just breaks my heart. My Road Trip was such an *intense* episode.

--Alissa

Date: 11 Feb 2007 00:31 (UTC)
From: [identity profile] purplesyringes.livejournal.com
*whimper* Damn, I hate Kim.

Lovely and very moving. I teared up. ^^;

(JD would have been a fantastic father...)

Date: 18 Feb 2007 06:48 (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ccnz.livejournal.com
I can't believe she did that to him

Date: 20 Feb 2007 00:05 (UTC)
From: (Anonymous)
awww..is it Jd's and kim's baby? aww..so sad..

Date: 20 Feb 2007 02:25 (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ear133.livejournal.com
you bunghole! you made me cry!!!! its so sweet

Date: 9 Mar 2007 07:51 (UTC)
From: [identity profile] csi-vixen.livejournal.com
Ow. Just... ow.

I cried. I haven't seen the episode (I'm a bit behind on Scrubs right now), so I had to look up the episode description... *tear*

JD would've been a great dad... And I knew there was a reason I didn't like that Kim bitch! What a horrible thing to do.

*Ahem* Sorry. But great writing. Spectacular emotion. I can even see JD writing something like this. *sniffles at the mental image*

Date: 12 Mar 2007 15:51 (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mistr3ssquickly.livejournal.com





*sniffle*

Read this one when I very first stumbled into this fandom, and it was sad, but didn't hurt like this, now that I know the characters. Beautifully written, and perfectly in JD's voice.

This is awesome. You do angst just right, hon! ♥

~m

Date: 29 May 2007 00:37 (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pavonine.livejournal.com
I haven't seen seasons four through six (workin' on it!), but I did see My Rabbit and My Point of No Return, and I kind of don't like Kim. I assume I'm not supposed to, so I won't. But still. Lying about a baby dying, and then I go and read something THIS EMOTIONAL where I'm now convinced that JD would be the bestest parent in the world?!

Ngurg is all I have to say. Ngurg.
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