Saying Goodbye
9 February 2007 11:36![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Author:
thuri
Characters: John Dorian
Rating: G
Description: Spoilers for "My Road Trip." Wrote this last night after seeing the episode, because JD wouldn't leave me alone.
An excerpt from John Dorian's journal:
Dear Squirt,
I didn't get to know you. Not even if you were a boy or a girl. But you would've been mine, and I wanted to say goodbye. Wanted to let you know how much you would've been loved.
I don't know if I would've been a good father to you. I hope I would've. I would've tried, harder than I've tried at anything. I could've taught you a lot of things, and your mommy could've, too. Probably a lot of things that would've made you roll your eyes and laugh at us, when you were older...
You would've had a lot of friends, a lot of people caring about you, too. You would've been really cute, because your mommy and I both are.
You would've been so welcomed. We didn't plan on you, weren't sure about it at first, but...that's just because we were scared. Once I got past that, I wanted you so much. Wanted to feel your fingers close around mine, wanted to see you smile, wanted to hold you, to see you grow up.
We would've had a good time together, you and me. We really would've. I'm a lot of fun. And I'm sure you would've been, too. We could've told each other silly jokes, played games, just talked.
I know you were a tiny, tiny little thing, when you left us, but I loved you already. You made me nervous, about the future, about whether I was ready to be everything you'd need, but I loved you.
I'm sorry you're gone. Sorry I'll never get that chance. So sorry...
So goodbye, Squirt. I'll be here waiting, next time you get a chance to be born. Then we can do everything we missed out on, this time, right? It just wasn't the right moment, yet.
But I'll hug you so close when it is.
Love,
Your daddy
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Characters: John Dorian
Rating: G
Description: Spoilers for "My Road Trip." Wrote this last night after seeing the episode, because JD wouldn't leave me alone.
An excerpt from John Dorian's journal:
Dear Squirt,
I didn't get to know you. Not even if you were a boy or a girl. But you would've been mine, and I wanted to say goodbye. Wanted to let you know how much you would've been loved.
I don't know if I would've been a good father to you. I hope I would've. I would've tried, harder than I've tried at anything. I could've taught you a lot of things, and your mommy could've, too. Probably a lot of things that would've made you roll your eyes and laugh at us, when you were older...
You would've had a lot of friends, a lot of people caring about you, too. You would've been really cute, because your mommy and I both are.
You would've been so welcomed. We didn't plan on you, weren't sure about it at first, but...that's just because we were scared. Once I got past that, I wanted you so much. Wanted to feel your fingers close around mine, wanted to see you smile, wanted to hold you, to see you grow up.
We would've had a good time together, you and me. We really would've. I'm a lot of fun. And I'm sure you would've been, too. We could've told each other silly jokes, played games, just talked.
I know you were a tiny, tiny little thing, when you left us, but I loved you already. You made me nervous, about the future, about whether I was ready to be everything you'd need, but I loved you.
I'm sorry you're gone. Sorry I'll never get that chance. So sorry...
So goodbye, Squirt. I'll be here waiting, next time you get a chance to be born. Then we can do everything we missed out on, this time, right? It just wasn't the right moment, yet.
But I'll hug you so close when it is.
Love,
Your daddy
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Date: 9 Feb 2007 19:47 (UTC)I'm still trying to figure out what happened, if Kim just lied to him or what. Help?
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Date: 9 Feb 2007 20:33 (UTC)And as far as I can tell, Kim lied to him, because she thought it would be for the best. They shouldn't be together if it's only for the sake of the baby, since they barely know each other and don't know if they'd be a good couple otherwise. Plus, she wants to stay in Tacoma, and knows JD would be torn if he knew he had a kid there.
That said, she still handled it really, really badly. I think she could've found another way to break up with him, other than telling him their baby died.
That said, this is written as JD's reaction to the news, not to Kim's lie, since he doesn't know she's lying.
Also? Your icon is making me crave cupcakes.
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Date: 11 Feb 2007 23:58 (UTC)thanks!
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Date: 9 Feb 2007 20:02 (UTC)Sorry. Getting over it.
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Date: 9 Feb 2007 20:34 (UTC)And yeah, Kim definitely could've handled that better.
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Date: 9 Feb 2007 20:09 (UTC)I FRIGGIN HATE KIM. DIE, KIM DIE!
ahem. Sorry about that. Still don't know what happened, but its good! Sounds like JD.
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Date: 9 Feb 2007 20:35 (UTC)no subject
Date: 9 Feb 2007 20:33 (UTC)no subject
Date: 9 Feb 2007 20:39 (UTC)I'm not exactly glad I made you cry, but I'm glad it was that powerful!
Thanks again!
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Date: 9 Feb 2007 20:53 (UTC)no subject
Date: 9 Feb 2007 20:56 (UTC)So goodbye, Squirt. I'll be here waiting, next time you get a chance to be born. Then we can do everything we missed out on, this time, right? It just wasn't the right moment, yet.
But I'll hug you so close when it is.
One of the saddest, sweetest things I've read and so perfectly JD. I love how he thinks the baby would have been like him and how he was looking forward to having fun with him/her.
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Date: 10 Feb 2007 00:36 (UTC)*sends Jack to give him a big hug*
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Date: 10 Feb 2007 19:05 (UTC)Oh, poor JD. It just breaks my heart. My Road Trip was such an *intense* episode.
--Alissa
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Date: 11 Feb 2007 00:31 (UTC)Lovely and very moving. I teared up. ^^;
(JD would have been a fantastic father...)
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Date: 18 Feb 2007 06:48 (UTC)no subject
Date: 20 Feb 2007 00:05 (UTC)no subject
Date: 20 Feb 2007 02:25 (UTC)no subject
Date: 9 Mar 2007 07:51 (UTC)I cried. I haven't seen the episode (I'm a bit behind on Scrubs right now), so I had to look up the episode description... *tear*
JD would've been a great dad... And I knew there was a reason I didn't like that Kim bitch! What a horrible thing to do.
*Ahem* Sorry. But great writing. Spectacular emotion. I can even see JD writing something like this. *sniffles at the mental image*
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Date: 12 Mar 2007 15:51 (UTC)*sniffle*
Read this one when I very first stumbled into this fandom, and it was sad, but didn't hurt like this, now that I know the characters. Beautifully written, and perfectly in JD's voice.
This is awesome. You do angst just right, hon! ♥
~m
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Date: 29 May 2007 00:37 (UTC)Ngurg is all I have to say. Ngurg.